But it was like to stop consuming is to stop being human

tattoooed thighssss

just set up 2 tattoo appointments.... one to get my right thigh finally finished in April... 

and the other appointment to get my new thigh piece in May at INKFEST convention... . i am so excited .. 

Adam just wrote me and described my new thigh piece to me.. ......and I just have one thing to say....... I am fucking speechless... :)
my twin sis has me in the tattoo mood for 2012.... so there you have it :) fill the need.

http://www.inkfestlive.com/

hair grows!

check it..

a little over  a year ago when i got that dead shit cut off..... and started the process of removing the black....

 and now..... long and reddish brown.. all that black ends shit cut off.... with about 4 cuts in-between that 1 year

i love watching hair grow.. its fucking fascinating to me... the human body is awesome  :-D

might as well face it

treated myself today with 2 treats

went to see the Woman in Black again... ugh it was even cooler the second time around... noticed more creepiness and fucking  just adore Dan Radcliffe.. gulp.

came home and watched a bunch of scary movies since the boys are spending the night at grammas :)
then made fucking amazing french toast that was the bomb ... i cant even remember the last time i hadddddd french toast.... over 2 years ago or so... ugh soo good....
2 treats.... Daniel and French toast... mmm great sunday :)

here's some pics from today

holy man

this video makes me very sad.... but very happy that Shannon's little girl has all these home videos he made for her to remember him in his life.... 

<3

someday.... i'll fall

sat. the 18th

the beauty of an extra eye

blood on the moon

dan's acting secrets

..to whisper in your ear.

frogs breath

spent another day with my son who is home sick..... we made "frogs breath soup"
& watched Tim Burton movies all day.... hes feeling much better so this makes me happy.
Must of been the soup :)

been working on soo much different stuff.... feeling in the creative mood...
This weather has been fantastic and it helps with the windows open.... good vibes... good energies..
:)
ready to finish kicking this days ass
enjoying the innocence of my children .. since well... that's all about to change this month! CRIES!

NO SEX

seriously.. wanna hear the scariest thing  I have ever heard in my life.... the thought of it sickens me.....

My son is learning sex ed next week in school.... just got a letter asking If I wanted to come view the video they are going to show to them before hand....... I am fucking terrified... his innocence will be gone and this is so frightening that I almost cant breathe thinking about it... NOOOOOOOOOOOO! He is tooo young to know.... :( cries.. cries... cries!!!!!!!!!!!!!

lego ripped chest

I hope Tristan can make me one of these..

..... bc his mama wants one <3

a better compliment

jiggly

getting rid of my jiggly under arm fat...
one weight at a time.... :-))))))))

"it" is almost all the way gone :-D

dance.

missing you...

... ugh.. found a bunch of old photos with friends.... made me really sad.....
not long ago.. but feels forever ago...... ... made me real sad.
i dont have times like these anymore..... i wonder if i ever will again?

holy weather batman.

aw... I am bummed bc my son Tristan woke up several times in the middle of the night complaining that he did not feel good... of course this morning I took his temp and it was at 101.... :( poor kiddo...

so Today is spent inside with my son Tris.... baking fresh home-made apple bran muffins

But I have to indulge in this weather ...so I am off to take my bike for a nice ride around the block.... :)
<3 .... I cant pass up weather like this... I just cant.. I need my cardio- Cardio is my favorite workout of them all.....

I cant even believe in short months I will be taking Sirena out in this weather day and night.... she sits by the window staring outside dying to go play in it...

of course I take her out as much as I can but lately its been freezing and snowy. I cant wait til she gets her first real taste of summer ....and frozen yogurt. :)

waiting for my cemetery boy....

to invite me in his coffin.....  death do us part
forever sleeping... forever dying.

she's the apple of my eye

holes in happiness

Look

Listen

bloody valentine

without you

fake

fake...fake.. fake.. fake, fake..... fake... and fake.

its the 5th of may every day.

Come on down
to my part of town
where the bullets light up the sky
it's the fifth of May every day
no one averts their eyes
or we could go
to the country
find a willow tree
lay down and whisper to it's roots
"won't you take my sorrow from me"

you can come with me
but I don't suggest you stay
I have a habit of leaving damage in my wake
I was born on a new moon
it dictates that fate
cuz if my highs don't get you
my lows will
guaranteed

I can talk to the Angels
And Listen to the stones
Storm winds know me best now
only with them
am I at home
I'm serenaded by the Oceans
and Looked after by the roads
The blood in my veins is older
than anything you've ever known

YOu can come with me
but i don't suggest you stay
I have a habit of leaving damage
in my wake
I was born on a new moon
Dictates that fate
If my highs don't get you
My lows will
guaranteed

you're right
I'm a whole different species
You're right
I'm not from here
but that's probably
why you like me
you like a little fear
but I'm golden hearted Baby
Born Lived and will die free
You're just in love with Romance
Only with the idea
of me

You can come with me
but I don't suggest you stay
I have a habit of leaving damage
in my wake
I was born on a new moon
dictates my fate
if My highs don't get you
my lows will guaranteed

I'm a different thing baby
not what you need....
I'm a different thing Baby
Not what you need.....

spread my wings and fly away

:) (:

an apple a day

or two or 3 or four.. or 5.

Dan, Be my Valentine

oh my god. look at what my gorgeous friend Sylvia sent me!!!!!!

I was screaming out loud from excitement.. I have never seen this photo of Dan before!!!

:) so cute..... so freaking bloody fantastic.

the woman in black

Ok ... .if you have seen the preview... or not  for  The Woman in Black.......staring my favorite ever Daniel fucking Harry Potter Radcliffe.........I just have to say one thing.... THIS MOVIE WAS FUCKING AMAZING....

.....Seriously, I want to go see it a couple more times in the theater again while its playing bc I LOVE seeing movies there... the sound, picture... experience is always better to me than sitting at home... .so yep.. gonnna pay to see it at least 2 more times.... :)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

The actors.... the plot....the words from their mouths...... the sets.... OMFG the sets were BEAUTIFUL...... ... it never got boring to me... and it was never cheesy at all..... I sometimes watch movies with the same actors branching into different parts and sometimes actors have one way of acting and .... that its just boring to me, if you act movie after movie and you are the same character every movie..... dude it sucks for u..... .but I didnt watch "The Woman in Black..." once and say "OMFG ITS HARRY POTTER!".... Daniel is going to do so much with acting,, ugh hes fucking brilliant........ Hes done plays and other parts since his main role Harry Potter and it proves he can do so much more..  .Daniel fucking rules and is a wonderful actor... dude is going to go far and I cant wait to see all his roles bc  hes very versatile... I'll be honest I was worried thinking about Harry Potter ....in a scary movie....?..... I didnt think it was going to be THIS good.... ...was worried I would leave and be like good... but "boringgggggg"....
Not even the case...... he did awesome....sooo awesome...


Go see this movie... I dont go out and see movies  bc I dont see anything that interests me anymore.... of course when I seen the preview for this I had high hopes and it was fucking everything I hoped for....
I fucking LOVE ghost movies... .anything about supernatural... this was awesome.... everything from beg. to end was amazing...... the story was so sickkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk and macabre it was actually even better than what i expected and the preview does not give away the actual story which is cool bc when I went with my friend Sylvia  (who i fucking love <3 we had so much fun)  there was people gasping at some of the parts.... lots of this shit they dont show in movies anymore.. dude..... creepy.. just creeeeeeeeeeeeeepy when it involves little kids- to me... dude so fucked up ahhahahha!


I screamed a couple times and squinted my eyes .....
The way the movie was shot was fucking beautiful..... A+ .. the visual was amazing... every close up and the way they shot to scare you fucking worked... i jumped like 3 times.......the "rocking chair" part they show in the preview above.... .DUDE fucking CHILLSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.


go see it.......
A++++++++++++++++++++ .. .going to see it again this weekend in diff seats for a diff experience.
... cant wait
I love  a GOOD ghost story.... this is deft a MUST SEE ghost story... you will NOT be disappointed.



Daniel Radcliffe... MARRY ME!

oh no.. not Whitney :(

I will say... that this saddens me very much. .Man o Man,. .... the memories from my childhood with Whitney Houston were amazing....... my twin sister Michelle and I would make countless home videos dancing and singing to her beautiful songs... she was our girl back in the day.......

Our Mother took just me and Michelle to see Whitney Houston live in concert in the 90's and it was amazing.. we had great seats and she sounded and looked soo beautiful... it was  a great memory I will always cherish with my Mother and my twin sister......

very sad day....... what a loss....
Whitney was a strong and beautiful woman.... I hope she is at peace..... I will listen to her music today and go back to a time in my life with my twin sister and the memories are beautiful.....
May you be at peace -sweet Whitney Houston

i love my pupppppy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sleeping with my baby girl Sirena <3 <3 I love her so much

fuckkkk off.

dudeeee.... there is one fuckin pet peeve i just realllllllllllllly cant stand... oooooh it fucking errkkkks me like NO OTHER

Dude, learn to SPELL!!!!!!!!!!!

...... learn to fucking spell on your facebookkkkk or your fuckinggggggggggggggggggg website.... I dont give a shit about proper fucking commmmas and periods and bullshit like that- i never have time for that shit anyways- I type like I talk.. no joke - and thats how I read it..... but really you fucking idiots......................................... LEARN TO SPELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!... or install a fucking SPELLCHECKER on your computer MORON whorebagggggggg.

florence

yes.

yoga is my favorite fucking time of the day.............................best....ever.

we belong dead

day of doom

eleven.

Thursday

9+2=11

 

The pain is evident in my existence

spybook / fakebook

FACEBOOK + YOU

If you are not paying for it..... You are not the customer.. You are the PRODUCT being sold.

_______________________________________

If you are still  partake in the current fad that is Facebook....
Make sure you add some knowledge to your likes instead of nonsense  that doesn't do shit for our economy or at making any sort of difference for YOU + OUR CHILDREN for the Future of our World.........
 For some real constant knowledge on what is going on with our Planet .... our Government and its spies watching you at everything you do...-This was one of the ONLY facebook pages that I actually enjoyed spending hours from my days reading..... real knowledge instead of nonsense.... check out this page


Exposing the Truth

https://www.facebook.com/ExposingTheTruth

   check out this link    <------------to read more about how Facebook can STILL track everything you do even when you sign off........ its bullshit...

I am not even sitting here saying that they are not watching me right now on blogger. ...its everywhere...
.... but I am going to be very strict about what I post online... I want to do something with my PHYSICAL BEING... Me.. .not just what I say and post online... I am tired of the same thing day in and day out.. year after year.... and I want MORE to show for......  which started with stepping away from the fads.... I hope some of my friends I have made during my facebook stay.... even myspace - will venture with me.

The  Exposing the Truth fan page was about  85% of the reason I left facebook........ + that piece of shit TIMELINE  and + mixxed feelings about people + things going on in my life and it ='s  full 100% reason I stepped away from facebook for good.
The things I spend time reading on the computer do not make me feel safe  on the internet...

After all the years of blogging and consistently spending time on the internet, I have opened my eyes
Now..... my children are older and understand so much about what goes on in the world.....
They live everyday in the fight for a better place b/c that is so important to stand up for your feelings and your beliefs........ in a world filled with bigots and Fascism..... we need to be the Change.....and I want change for my boys.

It starts with you... it ends with your children....
How do you want your children to spend their lives??
I can tell you something.. .I hope its NOTHING like what I have had to go thru as a young single Mother.


.... here is some more knowledge for you, May it find you well.

http://exposingthetruth.info

FOLLOW THE RABBIT

          

Luna glide down from the moon

this body holding me.....

I am stunned by the transformation of my body.........................
I just did a 4 mile walk in 28 degrees weather...
The transformation is real. .... and its a journey that I will not regret... like I have in the past...
everyday...

the path to enlightenment and integration.

	Chakra Seven: Sahasrara Thought, Universal identity, oriented to self-knowledge This is the crown chakra that relates to consciousness as pure awareness. It is our connection to the greater world beyond, to a timeless, spaceless place of all-knowing. When developed, this chakra brings us knowledge, wisdom, understanding, spiritual connection, and bliss.
	Chakra Six: Ajna Light, Archetypal identity, oriented to self-reflection This chakra is known as the brow chakra or third eye center. It is related to the act of seeing, both physically and intuitively. As such it opens our psychic faculties and our understanding of archetypal levels. When healthy it allows us to see clearly, in effect, letting us “see the big picture.”
	Chakra Five: Vishuddha Sound, Creative identity, oriented to self-expression This is the chakra located in the throat and is thus related to communication and creativity. Here we experience the world symbolically through vibration, such as the vibration of sound representing language.
	Chakra Four: Anahata Air, Social identity, oriented to self-acceptance This chakra is called the heart chakra and is the middle chakra in a system of seven. It is related to love and is the integrator of opposites in the psyche: mind and body, male and female, persona and shadow, ego and unity. A healthy fourth chakra allows us to love deeply, feel compassion, have a deep sense of peace and centeredness.
	Chakra Three: Manipura Fire, Ego identity, oriented to self-definition This chakra is known as the power chakra, located in the solar plexus. It rules our personal power, will, and autonomy, as well as our metabolism. When healthy, this chakra brings us energy, effectiveness, spontaneity, and non-dominating power.
	Chakra Two: Svadhisthana Water, Emotional identity, oriented to self-gratification The second chakra, located in the abdomen, lower back, and sexual organs, is related to the element water, and to emotions and sexuality. It connects us to others through feeling, desire, sensation, and movement. Ideally this chakra brings us fluidity and grace, depth of feeling, sexual fulfillment, and the ability to accept change.
	Chakra One: Muladhara Earth, Physical identity, oriented to self-preservation Located at the base of the spine, this chakra forms our foundation. It represents the element earth, and is therefore related to our survival instincts, and to our sense of grounding and connection to our bodies and the physical plane. Ideally this chakra brings us health, prosperity, security, and dynamic presence.

third eye

Look

 

Listen

Dance and laugh and love and learn.
Grow higher

drawing down the moon

................... beautiful art I found on deviantart.com 

two thousand and twelve...

 

 

Year of the Gemini 2012 Overview

Another year of sweeping changes are in store, Gemini. If you thought last year was a whirlwind, hold the line. With an encore round of eclipse patterns hitting your constellation this summer, you're gearing up for the next level of transformation! Your personal image and intimate relationships will continue to change over the course of the next 12 months, so be ready for anything. If you're single, this could very well be the year you finally get hitched. If you're already betrothed, this is the year you could reclaim your singledom, buy a house or have a baby. Either way, you're moving toward the great unknown, so let go - and let the stars show you the way!
This is your year to finally regain that sense of discipline you swore you'd have at the start of last year. With Saturn moving into your sector of health and routines this year, you should be able to get a good grip on daily wellness practices. Healthy foods and consistent exercise will be key to pushing your vitality from acceptable to stellar. You'll need to be operating at maximum potential to navigate all the exciting changes just around the bend!
The other big news is that Saturn is finally leaving your romance and creativity sector in October. After many hard-earned lessons in love over the past two years, you're ready for a serious reprieve. You've certainly upgraded your standards, haven't you? Use this year to live the words that you preach in your relationships. Many people look up to you as a role model, so act accordingly. With Mars activating your domestic sector for a good portion of the year, you'll have plenty of intensity on the home front to contend with. If you're not happy with your current living quarters, this is the year to put energy into making that change.

2-7-2012

after i deleted my facebook... i found this horoscope enlightening

Get out of the past today -- yesteryear is only relevant in terms of retro-clothing styles, classic movies, architecture, and musical inspirations. It's the future you should be focusing on right now. Let outmoded things pass when it comes to romance and personal growth. They are history for a reason. The days of chivalry might be dead, but in their wake comes a wiser, more equal time full of opportunity. Get with the current times and think modern.

horoscope today......

Life can be beautiful, but you need to keep calm and achieve inner peace in order to realize it.

 

so just breathe me in...

i cant put you down

Memories won't go, memories won't go

Red, red wine goes to my head,
Makes me forget that I still need her so

Red, red wine, it's up to you
All I can do I've done
Memories won't go, memories won't go

Life is fine every time,
Thoughts of you leave my head
I was wrong, now I find
Just one thing makes me forget

Red, red wine, stay close to me
Don't let me be alone
It's tearing apart my blue heart

free your mind

slit throat. open wound.