drown this sorrow

this silence

Dust devil swept you away
It's still not real
I should learn in silence
Talk to me
Dust devil swept you away
My recollections are all that's left of you
Swirl and sway
Without me

Dust devil swept you away
Whirling playful dancing
About you
What's left of you is
I should learn in this
Silent
Horizon

hurts the most

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let em out

I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while even though
Goin' on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm okay
But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And havin' so much to say
And watchin' you walk away

And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losin' you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' it
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still harder gettin' up, gettin' dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade, give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And havin' so much to say
(Much to say)
And watchin' you walk away

And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do, oh
Oh yeah

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And havin' so much to say
(To say)
And watchin' you walk away

And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do

Not seein' that lovin' you
That's what I was trying to do

so let it be said

so now I have decided to branch away from the stream of lies and fakes from my facebook world....
I want to actually do something with my writing and I'm not just talking putting up a fucking header...
I am so over the headers..... and nothingness that it brings...

spent so many years blogging about whatever.... and writing... actually writing - SOMETHING..
I do not do that anymore and well.. for shame....
I really wanna get back into my expression and leaving behind some sort of words- something, anything..... and photos  that are the meanings to my heart and feelings.....

I cant do it on fakebook..... I spend too much time getting washed away by my emotions and I am tired of it.....
I have too many thoughts that take over my life to want to waste anymore of this precious time I have left with people who never really gave a fuck what I was doing with myself to begin with....

I plan on writing a lot on this blog...feel free to check it out....

feel free to free your mind and step inside of mine.... even if just a little while

you my friend, are Welcome.

key to my heart

meet me here

change

 

in a world filled with darkness..

shine bright.